I Want To Know

Exactly one year ago today I created this little experiment..this blog. The experiment continues…

Part 1

Cue The X-Files theme music.  Today on this Friday the 13th in October is a very special day in The X-Files fandom. I have been a huge fan since the show first came out in 1994 in England so today is better than any other day to blog. It’s been a while since I have written anything. I have been busy living in the moments from living in New Mexico for 6 months to being back in New York city and very soon I will be going to the homeland, England.

I was 13 years old when I first heard and saw The X-Files. Prior to the show I was already obsessed with the paranormal, aliens, anything extraordinary and unexplained, etc. I read all the different books. Joined all the clubs including MUFON. I did my own investigations into ghost hauntings and UFO sightings. I attended various events.

The X-Files only fueled my imagination with more belief. When I was 15 years old I made a special trip from England to Roswell, NM and other known UFO/Alien abduction sites around the U.S. I even spent a night at Lake Champlain in Vermont, watching the waters all night, hoping to catch a glimpse of the sea monster Champ.

I also went to Vancouver in Canada where The X-Files was shot at the time and visited several locations from the episodes. In addition to that I was a huge collector of X-Files stuff, from comics to trading cards to action figures to books to special editions of all kinds. It was my all time favourite show right before Star Trek The Next Generation.

I believed in everything and anything. As a believer I wrote articles about the paranormal under an alias of course. Being born into religion I was always trying to reconcile religion with paranormal phenomena. Entertaining various theories of the supernatural.

I loved theology. I still do. As a wee teenager I read the Quran (in English instead of Arabic so I can actually understand it), the Bible (from alpha to omega – took me a while) and various gnostic texts. Religion played an important part growing up alongside my ultimate passion, my first love…the universe.

My interests in theology and the paranormal was secondary to science and the cosmos. A passion that began soon after I was born. This went beyond ancient astronauts, conspiracy theories, scripture and new age beliefs. I started questioning everything I believed in by learning how to think critically.

By the age of 17-18 I became the opposite to everything I was. I became a non-religious freethinking secular humanist. I did not want to believe. I wanted to understand. I wanted to know.

In this demon haunted world I began my journey of self discovery to seek and know the cosmos. I began a personal journey to know the minds of the many gods beyond the so called truths we told ourselves. One might call this existentialism. I call it evolution.

How did gods play a role in my journey? How did I make the journey from belief to non-belief? How I reconciled with over 90% of the world’s population that believe in some form of a supreme being? How I became the human I am today? And why?

To be continued in Part 2

THE TRUTH IS OUT THERE ?